Thursday, August 12, 2010

Inbox

I did a very silly thing just now.

Every few days I go into your email account just to make sure there's nothing important. And this time I had to write someone from your account- of course explaining that it was me writing- not you.

And then I cc'd myself on the reply.

And then I went back to my email

and saw your name

in my

inbox

and forgot what I'd just done.

My heart leapt.

3 comments:

  1. My sister called me using my mom's cell phone. I was at work, and picked up my cell to answer and when I saw "Mom's Cell" and her picture as the incoming call, I just about fell out of my chair.

    It wasn't fun...

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  2. I emailed my dead grandmother when I found out I got accepted into my doctoral program. I really hoped they had email in heaven.

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  3. Nearly six months after my father died, someone began calling my cell phone from the number my father had used. The first time I saw "Dad Cell" come up on my phone, I felt this strange slipping of time, as if the universe was off its axis. Finally, I answered.

    "Someone from this number keeps calling me!" the man said.

    I never once dialed that number.

    After that call, I decided it was time to erase the number from my contacts. It was my father speaking to me, I felt.

    It was one of the hardest, saddest things I ever had to do.

    I found you from the NY Times. I can't stop reading your blog. Your words offer me some glimpse into what my mother experienced when she lost her husband of 37 years, my dad.

    I wish I could reach through the screen and hold you, just hold you and shush you and listen to you.

    My prayers are with you and your daughter.

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